Mental health thread

This past nine-or-so months has been a time of great growth for me. Growing up I was a freak who surfed the internet instead of talking to people. I've always put a lot of pressure on myself to be social and well-liked--figuring myself defective if someone for any reason whatsoever didn't like me. I surrounded myself with lots of very toxic people, and in general I'd always just kind of taken it as a given that I was a burden on those around me. In high school, my best friend of many years one day told me that I was so annoying to listen to and everyone resented me, for example (I have dozens of stories like this).
Then, I met my current girlfriend and future wife. Guys, it was kind of a constant headtrip. She like, didn't think I was a weirdo, and like actually shared my views on most of life? Like, she wasn't just agreeing with me to shut me up, and was actually interested in what I had to say?? WHAT?? Furthermore, I found her equally captivating?? Ok???
This kind of changed my outlook on life. I started hanging out with people who enjoyed my presence, and perhaps paying a bit less attention to those who hated me for no reason. Sure, it still hurts, but for the first time in a while, I'm starting to consider that my whole life may not have just been a problem with me being built wrong, rather the people I've spent my time around.
I still get surprised when my friends aren't always mad at me, but it's getting easier to believe every day.
It feels really good.
 
Skeetos said:
Respectfully, this is bunk. You need to get out of your negativity. And I already know what you're going to say. But I'm gonna leave it be. This thread is wack.
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I'm not a negative person, I'm just realist.
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Antilocal123 said:
Depression is vastly different from everybody, you can't just force it’s definition, don't be insensitive.
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Yeah smoke a blunt once and we’ll see if you feel better, you’re young, you really think smoking Kush will help your self-esteem?

I’ve given you reasons before, once you feel your lungs ache you’ll realise it’s wrong.
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I'm not forcing anything to anyone, just saying.
 
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GardeniaSky said:
Hmm.

I have diagnosed Bipolar....and all but diagnosed Autism Spectrum Disorder[had a full psych assessment done, guy referred me for ASD testing since we ruled out ADHD, but insurance doesn't cover ASD testing over 21, so here we are].

Idk. I struggled socially and academically all through school. My parents punished me for both. We went to a family psych, the psych said 'hey, your kid is depressed, I'm gonna refer to you a specialist", my parents said 'they don't know what they're talking about' among other things I won't mention because yeah.

I'm 33 now, finally pretty stable. I was borderline homeless pretty frequently until a few years ago. Parents booted me at 17 because I was underperforming in life, and didn't want to deal with it I guess? I stayed with friends, slept with guys here and there for a place to crash, had issues with drug and alcohol abuse, ruined friendships because of my unmanaged and raging Bipolar symptoms...was generally a bad person. I'd steal stuff, boyfriends, you name it, just to get by.

I had my daughter 8 years ago, finally snapped, called my biological dad who lives in a completely different state. he told me to get help, so I did.

It's really validating to have medical professionals tell me that there's a legitimate reason I struggle so much with even the most mundane things. I've never been able to properly hold down a job. I always get burnt out, end up calling off or just stop showing up. I've never been self-sufficient financially. I can cook and clean and take care of the kid, but that's about it.

Now that I've word vomited my tragic and edgy back story, I'd like to say that video games have always been a grounding tool for me. Not an escape, but a way to regulate and center myself. Ever since I was young, before my symptoms really started hurting me and my ability to navigate my day-to-day, I was always fascinated with video games. It's been a lifelong hyperfixation, and I don't see myself growing out of it any time soon.

And I'm doing a lot better now. I have a great therapist and psych, I have a great partner and friends that have been exceptionally supportive through the recent years. I'm still working out the kinks with my medication. I'm on a new one, and I still feel the Bipolar 'crash' poking through on occasion, as well as a tiny bit of those manic highs, but I'm doing so much better. I can say I'm actually pretty content.

I'm still living with that constant fear that I'm going to have to 'pack up and leave' at some point. I don't know if that's ever going to go away. I spent over a decade of my life in survival mode, and I don't know if a person ever unlearns that.

I don't want to be like, that person that spouts platitudes and shit, but there were a lot of times that I hit rock bottom. A lot of bad days, a lot of bad people, bad decisions.

It can get better. It takes a really long time sometimes, and you might still have bad days, but you can't give up. Even if that voice in your head is saying nasty things, that's not wholly you. I don't know how to convey this...I'm really bad at verbalizing/putting my thoughts down when it comes to the complicated stuff...

The bad brain parts, you have to peel them away. You have to put them in a box, and deal with the box. You can't throw the box out, but you can get better at dealing with the box. you can get better at storing the box, organizing the box, navigating the box. The box is always going to be a part of you, but you don't have to just let the box spill out and clutter everything else. you might need medicine for the box, or you might just need to talk about the box. Both are valid ways to deal with the box, but you can't just ignore the box. And don't let the box eat you. Don't feed the box. If the box is too big it won't fit, and you'll be all box. We don't want to be all box, because we're more than that.
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Hey. I’d like to just thank you for sharing this here. I’m still processing it all, since it’s such a heavy life, but… thank you for being here. We can’t provide much (other than roms, flexing, memes, and a thread about counting to an absurdly high number that people keep messing up) but I hope the people here have supplied you with something nice to compliment your life.

And good luck raising your daughter. It can’t be easy being a parent. But I hope you’re the type of parent to see your child as a gift, despite how much of an immense responsibility they are. Raise her well, love her well, and maybe share a game or two with her along the way. That’s all I can really ask.

Whoever you are, wherever you are, know your presence on this earth is appreciated. And have a nice day.

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thankyou for sharing and thankyou groovin' vibribbon including the message in a quote above

i have struggled similarly, though i've never been given a diagnosis despite my efforts. when i was last 'comfortably employed' i spent upwards of $1500 trying to get privately diagnosed, which lead to jack shit. i've since fully regressed and have been barely functioning on handouts ever since.

i've kinda been stuck in "WAITING MODE". these past few months more than others. as if i am constantly waiting for myself to start something. i think (and have thought this for a long time) that i could benefit from ADHD medication in order to channel my focus and quiet my constantly exploding mind, i have ocassionally had some black market in my lifetime. so i guess trying to get something diagnosed privately they just thought i was fishing for a prescription. to a degree i guess i was but earnestly, it is for my health. i need help here and no one has been willing to listen.

so i just kinda waiting mode. i get up i do some human things and then its just me stuck with a cacaphony of overlapping painful thoughts and so i just kinda sit and wait. maybe put a youtube on. dread when it ends.
 
GardeniaSky said:
Hmm.

I have diagnosed Bipolar....and all but diagnosed Autism Spectrum Disorder[had a full psych assessment done, guy referred me for ASD testing since we ruled out ADHD, but insurance doesn't cover ASD testing over 21, so here we are].

Idk. I struggled socially and academically all through school. My parents punished me for both. We went to a family psych, the psych said 'hey, your kid is depressed, I'm gonna refer to you a specialist", my parents said 'they don't know what they're talking about' among other things I won't mention because yeah.

I'm 33 now, finally pretty stable. I was borderline homeless pretty frequently until a few years ago. Parents booted me at 17 because I was underperforming in life, and didn't want to deal with it I guess? I stayed with friends, slept with guys here and there for a place to crash, had issues with drug and alcohol abuse, ruined friendships because of my unmanaged and raging Bipolar symptoms...was generally a bad person. I'd steal stuff, boyfriends, you name it, just to get by.

I had my daughter 8 years ago, finally snapped, called my biological dad who lives in a completely different state. he told me to get help, so I did.

It's really validating to have medical professionals tell me that there's a legitimate reason I struggle so much with even the most mundane things. I've never been able to properly hold down a job. I always get burnt out, end up calling off or just stop showing up. I've never been self-sufficient financially. I can cook and clean and take care of the kid, but that's about it.

Now that I've word vomited my tragic and edgy back story, I'd like to say that video games have always been a grounding tool for me. Not an escape, but a way to regulate and center myself. Ever since I was young, before my symptoms really started hurting me and my ability to navigate my day-to-day, I was always fascinated with video games. It's been a lifelong hyperfixation, and I don't see myself growing out of it any time soon.

And I'm doing a lot better now. I have a great therapist and psych, I have a great partner and friends that have been exceptionally supportive through the recent years. I'm still working out the kinks with my medication. I'm on a new one, and I still feel the Bipolar 'crash' poking through on occasion, as well as a tiny bit of those manic highs, but I'm doing so much better. I can say I'm actually pretty content.

I'm still living with that constant fear that I'm going to have to 'pack up and leave' at some point. I don't know if that's ever going to go away. I spent over a decade of my life in survival mode, and I don't know if a person ever unlearns that.

I don't want to be like, that person that spouts platitudes and shit, but there were a lot of times that I hit rock bottom. A lot of bad days, a lot of bad people, bad decisions.

It can get better. It takes a really long time sometimes, and you might still have bad days, but you can't give up. Even if that voice in your head is saying nasty things, that's not wholly you. I don't know how to convey this...I'm really bad at verbalizing/putting my thoughts down when it comes to the complicated stuff...

The bad brain parts, you have to peel them away. You have to put them in a box, and deal with the box. You can't throw the box out, but you can get better at dealing with the box. you can get better at storing the box, organizing the box, navigating the box. The box is always going to be a part of you, but you don't have to just let the box spill out and clutter everything else. you might need medicine for the box, or you might just need to talk about the box. Both are valid ways to deal with the box, but you can't just ignore the box. And don't let the box eat you. Don't feed the box. If the box is too big it won't fit, and you'll be all box. We don't want to be all box, because we're more than that.
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Hey, your post really gripped me and I ended up reading all of it.
I find your concept of putting your negative traits in a box interesting.

I was also thinking about this approach: to put all our unwanted traits and emotions in a box and keeping it locked and managed. I tried that but what was left of me was nothing. I was just robotic, empty. I could perform really well in my daily tasks but that emptiness... it's just not worth it for me to live that way.

I believe eastern religions encourage your to accept and live with these emotions in a harmonious way. Not lock them up, but give them some degree of freedom. Study them, grasp how they tick. Why do I feel this emotion? Why did this emotion emerge? Does this emotion have purpose? Is this emotion useful to me? These are some questions you can address yourself to find the real root of that particular emotion.

This is what helped me the most personally. I am trying to unify everything under the banner that is defined as "me". Understand the purpose of each part, each emotion.

Also something worth mentioning. Even something we might deem as "negative" or unwanted, has value to us. For example fear. It can help but it can also hinder. If proper studied, you will get a good grasp if fear in a given situation is needed or not.

Now my question to you. I am curious, did you try this approach of living in harmony with your unwanted traits/emotions? If yes, where did it fail? I am aware that we are all different and there is no single solution that fits all cases. For me personally, this solution worked while the box one failed::alucard
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RanmyakuIchi said:
Nearly all of these will only make things worse. I know it sucks, but there's really no shortcut or easy road when it comes to dealing with depression or bettering one's mental state. I've tried finding my happiness in a bottle in the past and would definitely not recommend.
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Completely agree.

There is no shortcut, you have to do things proper and take it slow and steady. Otherwise you will also add frustration and even more depression/feeling of inadequacy to your bucket list of never-ending issues
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PurpleShoes said:
This past nine-or-so months has been a time of great growth for me. Growing up I was a freak who surfed the internet instead of talking to people. I've always put a lot of pressure on myself to be social and well-liked--figuring myself defective if someone for any reason whatsoever didn't like me. I surrounded myself with lots of very toxic people, and in general I'd always just kind of taken it as a given that I was a burden on those around me. In high school, my best friend of many years one day told me that I was so annoying to listen to and everyone resented me, for example (I have dozens of stories like this).
Then, I met my current girlfriend and future wife. Guys, it was kind of a constant headtrip. She like, didn't think I was a weirdo, and like actually shared my views on most of life? Like, she wasn't just agreeing with me to shut me up, and was actually interested in what I had to say?? WHAT?? Furthermore, I found her equally captivating?? Ok???
This kind of changed my outlook on life. I started hanging out with people who enjoyed my presence, and perhaps paying a bit less attention to those who hated me for no reason. Sure, it still hurts, but for the first time in a while, I'm starting to consider that my whole life may not have just been a problem with me being built wrong, rather the people I've spent my time around.
I still get surprised when my friends aren't always mad at me, but it's getting easier to believe every day.
It feels really good.
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Happy for you, fellow struggler! A little bit of acceptance from ourselves or from someone else can really change our whole perspective on life::alucard
 
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ShanaFlameHaze said:
Hey, your post really gripped me and I ended up reading all of it.
I find your concept of putting your negative traits in a box interesting.

I was also thinking about this approach: to put all our unwanted traits and emotions in a box and keeping it locked and managed. I tried that but what was left of me was nothing. I was just robotic, empty. I could perform really well in my daily tasks but that emptiness... it's just not worth it for me to live that way.

I believe eastern religions encourage your to accept and live with these emotions in a harmonious way. Not lock them up, but give them some degree of freedom. Study them, grasp how they tick. Why do I feel this emotion? Why did this emotion emerge? Does this emotion have purpose? Is this emotion useful to me? These are some questions you can address yourself to find the real root of that particular emotion.

This is what helped me the most personally. I am trying to unify everything under the banner that is defined as "me". Understand the purpose of each part, each emotion.

Also something worth mentioning. Even something we might deem as "negative" or unwanted, has value to us. For example fear. It can help but it can also hinder. If proper studied, you will get a good grasp if fear in a given situation is needed or not.

Now my question to you. I am curious, did you try this approach of living in harmony with your unwanted traits/emotions? If yes, where did it fail? I am aware that we are all different and there is no single solution that fits all cases. For me personally, this solution worked while the box one failed::alucard
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Completely agree.

There is no shortcut, you have to do things proper and take it slow and steady. Otherwise you will also add frustration and even more depression/feeling of inadequacy to your bucket list of never-ending issues
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Happy for you, fellow struggler! A little bit of acceptance from ourselves or from someone else can really change our whole perspective on life::alucard
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I look at boxing stuff up as managing it more than locking it away. Any time you're faced with clutter, finding a suitable container for it makes storing and managing it so much easier.

I'm still wrestling with all of those traits I don't like. I haven't quite figured out how to properly weaponize them, and I think a lot of people spend a large portion of their lives in finding a constructive, non-toxic way to find power in those flaws.

A lot of it is like, how do I find strength in my inaction? My executive dysfunction? I tend to get 'stuck' when I need to start a task, and it ends up taking me all day no matter how hard I try to force the task. How does one weaponize that inadequacy for their gain? How does a person push that into the positive?

Another problem is a severe fear of failure and judgment(which I wasn't wholly aware of until I had a full psych eval and the evaluator pointed it out). A lot of times I'll just abandon a project because I feel like I'm not doing a 'good job'. A huge example and thorn in my side is my D&D campaign. It's my first time DMing and we've been on hiatus now for almost a year because I felt like I wasn't giving it my all, and I didn't want my players to have a badly executed experience. I know logically that being 'good' at something like that takes a lot of practice, and I know my friends are just happy to have a reason to get together and hang out, but I'm paralyzed and unable to prepare more content for more sessions because I feel like I'm never going to be able to deliver an amazing experience.

And it's not like I even take issue with criticism or players questioning my decisions. It's a collaborative narrative. Everyone's input and ideas matter so much. Two of the players are also experienced DMs and players, so they happily help with anything I might forget or not know. Another one of the players loves narrative play, and the campaign has been mostly narrative so far save for the last session which was a huge fight(I almost killed them but it was fun). And our last player even messaged me saying that was the most immersed and excited they've ever been playing D&D. I get positive feedback but idk I'm still just stuck.

I've always had a really hard time with materializing my thoughts. I have so many cool ideas for the campaign(and it's a pre-made module that I'm modding heavily, so it's not like I'm even starting from scratch), but I have such a terrible time verbalizing my ideas, and it just becomes void soup.

Sorry that was a lot longer than I'd intended.

TLDR: I'm working on it. I think true shadow work and its resolution takes your whole life.
 
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I look at boxing stuff up as managing it more than locking it away. Any time you're faced with clutter, finding a suitable container for it makes storing and managing it so much easier.

I'm still wrestling with all of those traits I don't like. I haven't quite figured out how to properly weaponize them, and I think a lot of people spend a large portion of their lives in finding a constructive, non-toxic way to find power in those flaws.

A lot of it is like, how do I find strength in my inaction? My executive dysfunction? I tend to get 'stuck' when I need to start a task, and it ends up taking me all day no matter how hard I try to force the task. How does one weaponize that inadequacy for their gain? How does a person push that into the positive?

Another problem is a severe fear of failure and judgment(which I wasn't wholly aware of until I had a full psych eval and the evaluator pointed it out). A lot of times I'll just abandon a project because I feel like I'm not doing a 'good job'. A huge example and thorn in my side is my D&D campaign. It's my first time DMing and we've been on hiatus now for almost a year because I felt like I wasn't giving it my all, and I didn't want my players to have a badly executed experience. I know logically that being 'good' at something like that takes a lot of practice, and I know my friends are just happy to have a reason to get together and hang out, but I'm paralyzed and unable to prepare more content for more sessions because I feel like I'm never going to be able to deliver an amazing experience.

And it's not like I even take issue with criticism or players questioning my decisions. It's a collaborative narrative. Everyone's input and ideas matter so much. Two of the players are also experienced DMs and players, so they happily help with anything I might forget or not know. Another one of the players loves narrative play, and the campaign has been mostly narrative so far save for the last session which was a huge fight(I almost killed them but it was fun). And our last player even messaged me saying that was the most immersed and excited they've ever been playing D&D. I get positive feedback but idk I'm still just stuck.

I've always had a really hard time with materializing my thoughts. I have so many cool ideas for the campaign(and it's a pre-made module that I'm modding heavily, so it's not like I'm even starting from scratch), but I have such a terrible time verbalizing my ideas, and it just becomes void soup.

Sorry that was a lot longer than I'd intended.

TLDR: I'm working on it. I think true shadow work and its resolution takes your whole life.
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I don't mean to kill the serious mood, but at this point, you should've been able to summon a persona.
 
YoshifreakZX said:
Won't lie, ever since posting my initial vent and claimed to "gain a bit of motivation", I sort of fell back into old habits yet again.
Over 2 years of this crap. I'm so tired of it.
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I feel you there, for sure. We all slip up every now and then, kudos to you for being honest about that. Sending good vibes your way, keep going! And don't beat yourself up too bad, you'd probably encourage any friend of yours to keep pushing if they were in your position ::thumbsupwario
 
All of these comments and texts really resonate within me and help me cope with my ilnesses when i read them. I know that i have fallen pretty deep into the abyss and even hurt some people i never wished to when they were there for me every day. Even in my weak state, there is a side of me no one should see becasue it tears teverything apart. If you are reading this, we will meet again someday. When im better, like you said.

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I don't know if this is a proper vent, but i just wanna share it with somebody, since i can't talk to most of people i know in real life about this.

For some of my life i have considered myself to be a sociopath, even getting a proper diagnosis related to this, i considered myself to be someone with no regard to others being or a drop of empathy, this happened due to my difficulties in childhood with my parents, so i sort of made a protective barrier around me to not get hurt more. But recently i discovered something about myself, after crying out of pure empathy for the first time in a long while: i'm not a sociopath or who i've made myself to be, im me, a human, and i feel empathy, along with all emotions a human has, that i thought i didn't have.

Right now i'm just happy to be alive.
 
Late night post:



A little out of character for me to be writing something like this (again) but i need to get something out of my chest.



The person i am and want to be is this persona i had on this website. The silly one, being just kind to everyone, trying to stay positive and being chill even if dense conversations. I want to give encouragement for those who are struggling and reinforce positivity in everyones life. But lately i ve been feeling kinda down and overwhelmed. My irl life has been not really that fine, and the feelings of loneliness and boredom



I am also scared, i don’t want to go down again.



I ve been stuck in a Limbo for 6 years now. Being an actress not only for my close ones, but also myself. To be honest i am kinda tired of living the life i am living. I was a gifted kid with the world in her shoulders, born to be a someone successful with gifted intelligence and creativity. With the love of her parents and being kinda good with fitting into the school system.



But i always felt wrong, like i was only acting. Inside me there was this darkness that could not be filled with praises or compliments. Inside me i felt so wrong for how i felt. Truth be told, I think i lost my innocence so quickly. When i started to know about the world and myself it all fell so vile and cruel. Then that knowledge turn into reality and i was stuck in a limbo of PTSD and depression. Guilt, sadness and meaningless was all i can feel for years.



I am doing better now, and i want to keep doing the things i love to do. Not only to kill this boredom and loneliness, but also because i am working to be the girl i couldn’t be and always wanted to be. But i am scared of going down again, because i have already fallen down a couple times in this healing times.



All this to say: I am genuinely thankful for this site and all the people i came across. Is a relief being able to take a break from my life to just share silly memories i have about the things i love. Thanks to everyone i shared a conversation in this site. To the people that had said to me the kindest words, to the ones that we shared some silly interactions (like the Lucky Star gang) and to everyone that spends their valuable time writing articles, creating funny threads, or even just lurking here.



Thank u if you read this❤️
 
Cheela said:
Late night post:



A little out of character for me to be writing something like this (again) but i need to get something out of my chest.



The person i am and want to be is this persona i had on this website. The silly one, being just kind to everyone, trying to stay positive and being chill even if dense conversations. I want to give encouragement for those who are struggling and reinforce positivity in everyones life. But lately i ve been feeling kinda down and overwhelmed. My irl life has been not really that fine, and the feelings of loneliness and boredom



I am also scared, i don’t want to go down again.



I ve been stuck in a Limbo for 6 years now. Being an actress not only for my close ones, but also myself. To be honest i am kinda tired of living the life i am living. I was a gifted kid with the world in her shoulders, born to be a someone successful with gifted intelligence and creativity. With the love of her parents and being kinda good with fitting into the school system.



But i always felt wrong, like i was only acting. Inside me there was this darkness that could not be filled with praises or compliments. Inside me i felt so wrong for how i felt. Truth be told, I think i lost my innocence so quickly. When i started to know about the world and myself it all fell so vile and cruel. Then that knowledge turn into reality and i was stuck in a limbo of PTSD and depression. Guilt, sadness and meaningless was all i can feel for years.



I am doing better now, and i want to keep doing the things i love to do. Not only to kill this boredom and loneliness, but also because i am working to be the girl i couldn’t be and always wanted to be. But i am scared of going down again, because i have already fallen down a couple times in this healing times.



All this to say: I am genuinely thankful for this site and all the people i came across. Is a relief being able to take a break from my life to just share silly memories i have about the things i love. Thanks to everyone i shared a conversation in this site. To the people that had said to me the kindest words, to the ones that we shared some silly interactions (like the Lucky Star gang) and to everyone that spends their valuable time writing articles, creating funny threads, or even just lurking here.



Thank u if you read this❤️
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I understand this feeling all too well. I was a gifted kid too, and the pressure and demands of both my parents and the school system ended up leading me down some dark roads. Truth be told, I wasn't always the nicest person, and the fear of turning back into that person weighs on me at times. The past doesn't need to define us though, and we can move forward with an open heart.

I'm glad you're doing better, and I'm glad you're taking steps to be the person you want to be. There's a lot of good eggs on this site, and it's been a real pleasure to be a part of it.

I'm wishing you the best, I know you got this!
 
Sandteufel said:
Kind of hope for a day where I'll no longer need medication but that day is very far off. Had a mental breakdown when I was 13, psychotic episodes for 3 or 4 years afterward. Schizoaffective disorder. Forced me to confront a lot of questions about my being and spirituality. On quetiapine and desvenlafaxine which has helped considerably but it makes me sleep a lot and I gained a lot of weight because of it. I'm a lardass now. Eh.

I wonder if I could ever be an actually good father. I am terrified of intimacy, terrified of allowing another existent human being get that close to me who isn't someone I've known since childhood. I can only air my issues out online or to my father, who's really the only friend I have.

I can only truly be who I am in my own mind. I've been fantasizing this imaginary world for a few years, building on it constantly and just living in there. I will admit, I am a waifuist. Sayaka Miki is my waifu and has been since I was 14 (so we're getting to 7 years this August).

She's one of the only other figures who lives with me in that world. I imagine all sorts of scenarios with her. Playing video games, going to a fair, watching YT and anime, listening to music, all sorts of cool stuff. My fantasies aren't usually sexual either. I fantasize of being a child and befriending her. Somehow I've projected the isolation that's dogged me since I first uttered a word onto her.

My only good memories as a child are those spent inside with video games. Not much memory of doing things like playing outside with friends, sleepovers, chilling at friends' houses that sort of thing. I didn't even think it was weird to stay inside all day.
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I managed to quit my psych pills cold turkey few months back. it took a few weeks of pain, but I was not gonna go through the pain of relapsing. I feel like I'm in control.
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Cheela said:
Hi, i hope you all having a wonderful day!

I struggle writing this because it hits hard. Yes i know, this is not a replacement for professional medical help. Don't worry, i am being properly treated but just wanna vent somethings and also give a big virtual hug to everyone who is facing with struggles with their mental health.

Is rough, i've been fighting with depression for what it feels like for ever. All because an asshole decided to ignore a "no" for answer (that's all i am gonna say for now because i don't want to trigger anyone). I've been struggling to accept myself, wanted to end it all a couple of times and get hospitalized for it. Also because of all of that i am struggling to finish my studies. I don't like what i studied anymore and here i am in this weird limbo of feeling like i don't belong, feeling worthless and a burden to all around me. Then last year hits like a truck: Fake irl friends decide to stab my back, my dog passed away and start getting more recurrent panic attacks and nightmares.

But here i am still fighting and you can too.

The internet was always a place for me to escape reality, but it wasn't always good. To be honest i wasn't doing me any good sticking with social media and all the scary stuff and news that had happen recently.
But i still want to believe that there is hope in this world.

Thats all! Thanks for reading if you do. And if you struggle with something, there will be always someone, somewhere hoping that things get better for you and hoping for your success and hapiness. You matter, you are important and deserve to be happy. Life is too short to be unhappy and too long to be unfun. ❤️ ?
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Hope life treats you better from now, but you are strong for deciding to do something about it. Sending all the virtual hugs to you ?
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mental hospital was hell for me. I wouldn't wish that shit on anyone it broke me.
 
Kamako said:
I'm thinking of making a strawman thread where I can just write heinous shit about a made up person in an attempt to let some pressure out.
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If it makes you feel better I say go for it, bottling up your feelings could only go so far until it eventually explode, vent it out I say.
 
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