I don't want to sound indiscreet, but what is it that leads you to spend your days this way?
For me, playing mostly relieved an absence of affection and attention from my parents, whom I nevertheless have always loved deeply. Somehow my family situation also affected me in my relationships with others, especially in the school environment.
Then things changed, new interests arose, new people who helped me reevaluate myself, recognize my limitations and some of my qualities. And it will be the same for you, I'm sure?