Mental health thread

[bigstinkie]

Yeah... I was taken from home, sent to the middle of nowhere, put on a leash and under constant surveillance, all because I wanted to do weed and whiskey with the most despicable people on the planet.

Absolutely not worth it.

i am sorry to hear that - with the leash and constant surveillance comment, are you referring to a psychiatric ward? around seven years into my decade long heroin addiction i was sent to a psych ward
while it was not perfect, i think it did represent a turning point for me in some fashion
the only way i was able to get off heroin was by abusing equally illegal stimulants, getting passed around every bedroom in town, and so on
i have been clean for around a month and a half now, which may not sound like a long time for most people, but it is the longest i have been drug free in years
i'm not sure what to think at this point about it all

 

[Xdqwerty Xdqwerty]

Ok then I will shut the fuck up

I dont wanna sound sarcastic but since I dont wanna (bc my instinct doesnt want me to either) tell people irl about my issues I guess ill bottle them up for the rest of my life

 

[Viviana Santos]

I fucking hate myself sometimes NGL.

 

[Xdqwerty Xdqwerty]

View attachment 85125 I fucking hate myself sometimes NGL.

Same

 

[Waffles's iconWaffles]

i am sorry to hear that - with the leash and constant surveillance comment, are you referring to a psychiatric ward?

Thankfully not.

I was sent to my dad's house to live with his bitchy new wife who saw me as little more than a pest who had invaded her house -- little more than a rat or an oversized cockroach. She made it clear from the very first moment that I wasn't welcome there and that I was lucky to even get meals. I was forced to leave my possessions under lock and key too.

It certainly taught me a thing or two...

You are very brave, my friend.

 

[Waffles's iconWaffles]

I dont wanna sound sarcastic but since I dont wanna (bc my instinct doesnt want me to either) tell people irl about my issues I guess ill bottle them up for the rest of my life

Nobody wants you to shut up, just to seek help beyond what we can provide here.

 

[Waffles's iconWaffles]

View attachment 85125 I fucking hate myself sometimes NGL.

Love you.

 

[Xdqwerty Xdqwerty]

just to seek help beyond what we can provide here.

Well ,I dont want to.

 

[jiyuuboyetsvi]

i have been clean for around a month and a half now, which may not sound like a long time for most people, but it is the longest i have been drug free in years
i'm not sure what to think at this point about it all

I'm glad to hear this. It warms my heart

 

[RageBurner]

Well ,I dont want to.

We are not mental health professionals and cannot create the environment you need to address your needs, though. Venting here won't achieve much unless you decide to help yourself as well.

 

[Xdqwerty Xdqwerty]

i am sorry to hear that - with the leash and constant surveillance comment, are you referring to a psychiatric ward? around seven years into my decade long heroin addiction i was sent to a psych ward
while it was not perfect, i think it did represent a turning point for me in some fashion
the only way i was able to get off heroin was by abusing equally illegal stimulants, getting passed around every bedroom in town, and so on
i have been clean for around a month and a half now, which may not sound like a long time for most people, but it is the longest i have been drug free in years
i'm not sure what to think at this point about it all

Drugs are good tho, they are better than telling people irl about your issues althoug ive never tried them. And even if drugs will not do any good to me, but i'm sure they will make me be more positive since hippies always do drugs and/or smoke and/or vape and they are always positive (although I never saw any hippie irl, only on movies and TV).

We are not mental health professionals and cannot create the environment you need to address your needs, though. Venting here won't achieve much unless you decide to help yourself as well.

I know, but I still dont wanna seek help and the only way I can help myself is by insulting myself and harming myself. Also, didnt you read my post about therapy in venezuela?

 

[Carlnshake Carlnshake]

Drugs are good tho, they are better than telling people irl about your issues althoug ive never tried them. And even if drugs will not do any good to me, but i'm sure they will make me be more positive since hippies always do drugs and/or smoke and/or vape and they are always positive (although I never saw any hippie irl, only on movies and TV).

I know, but I still dont wanna seek help and the only way I can help myself is by insulting myself and harming myself. Also, didnt you read my post about therapy in venezuela?

You are 16. Don't do drugs, there's no benefit at that age of doing drugs or alcohol, and this is coming from a "hippie"

 

[jiyuuboyetsvi]

Drugs are good tho, they are better than telling people irl about your issues althoug ive never tried them. And even if drugs will not do any good to me, but i'm sure they will make me be more positive since hippies always do drugs and/or smoke and/or vape and they are always positive (although I never saw any hippie irl, only on movies and TV).

I'm sorry but this is coming from a place of ignorance. I know you're young, but this kind of mindset will not help you and only get you hurt. Talk like this pisses me off so much. Do you know how many of my friends are dead because of drugs?

Hoooly shit. Please, listen to yourself and what you're saying.

 

[Xdqwerty Xdqwerty]

Hoooly shit. Please, listen to yourself and what you're saying.

I always listen to myself and what I say

 

[jiyuuboyetsvi]

I always listen to myself and what I say

Then stop talking nonsense. You'll come back to this post in 10 years and think: "damn, I can't believe I said this shit."

I know how you feel. I've said the same crap when I was your age. Me and several others here have went down this same hole that you're moaning for so longingly.

You don't know what you're in for. Don't mess with this shit, you got so much more to live for.

 

[Xdqwerty Xdqwerty]

Then stop talking nonsense. You'll come back to this post in 10 years and think: "damn, I can't believe I said this shit."

I know how you feel. I've said the same crap when I was your age. Me and several others here have went down this same hole that you're moaning for so longingly.

You don't know what you're in for. Don't mess with this shit, you got so much more to live for.

What else am I supposed to reply with?

 

[jiyuuboyetsvi]

What else am I supposed to reply with?

Nothing. Take care of yourself. The internet can't help you

Edit: I'm sorry for being so blunt and crass with my words, but I don't know how to say something like this without being direct and to the point. I obviously don't know what it's like over there in Venezuela, and I'm not you.

The words and feelings that you're echoing out ring loud and true within my own heart and soul. I've said and thought these exact same statements before, and I'm pleading back to you with all of my love (whatever that's even worth) to not follow in the same mistakes that I've done. Don't waste your time, there's nothing there but even more pain and suffering.

Try going outside. Go to a river, roll in the grass, drink some water. Talk to people. We're not meant to lock ourselves away from the rest of the world, flooding our eyes with the blue light from our screens.

 

[Xdqwerty Xdqwerty]

Nothing. Take care of yourself.

How? I dont wanna tell people irl about my issues

 

[jiyuuboyetsvi]

How? I dont wanna tell people irl about my issues

That's the only way. I'm sorry. It's hard, I know it is. I spent 14 years not even looking at my parents in the eye, mute of my own choice, suffering in silence alone with all of the "people" online.

There is no comparison to having someone irl listen to you. Online is a farse, a crutch.You deserve lovely people in your life, in person. You don't need therapists in particular, but having someone you can talk and cry with irl will make all the difference.

I know you don't *want* to do it. It's scary. It probably makes your stomach curl and your anxiety spike. But it's the only way. Please ask someone for a hug.

I'm sorry we can't be here for you in person, I really am. I wish I could do more.

 

[Xdqwerty Xdqwerty]

That's the only way. I'm sorry. It's hard, I know it is. I spent 14 years not even looking at my parents in the eye, mute of my own choice, suffering in silence alone with all of the "people" online.

There is no comparison to having someone irl listen to you. Online is a farse, a crutch.You deserve lovely people in your life, in person. You don't need therapists in particular, but having someone you can talk and cry with irl will make all the difference.

I know you don't *want* to do it. It's scary. It probably makes your stomach curl and your anxiety spike. But it's the only way. Please ask someone for a hug.

I'm sorry we can't be here for you in person, I really am. I wish I could do more.

Dying an rotting in hell for all eternity sounds easier for someone who has aspergers and is as introvert as I.

 

[jiyuuboyetsvi]

Dying an rotting in hell for all eternity sounds easier for someone who has aspergers and is as introvert as I.

I know it does. I also have autism. I had "friends" back in highschool who would tell me to "shut up", that I was "stupid and didn't know anything". That it was okay to be gay as long as I wasn't "that other faggot in senior year".

Autism is something that I've had all my life, but only just recently been diagnosed with. A lot of people don't see the world like we do. They don't understand how we think. A lot of the times, people even seem alien to me. I spend a lot of time watching people and taking mental notes about how I'm "supposed to work". But really, the only way I've finally started to feel like myself and love being alive is when I embraced my autism and followed my dreams.

Dying an rotting in hell for all eternity sounds easier for someone who has aspergers and is as introvert as I.

I'm sitting here on a curb in a back street typing this all out to you. It's 31°C and I'm sweating bullets. You'd be foolish to think that we aren't currently living in hell right now. The only difference between the heaven and hell right here on Earth, is how we decide to face our lives. Our own personal hells. The only way to push through hell is to face your fears head on and crawl your way up. You're already here. I'm sure you love it.

 

[Carlnshake Carlnshake]

Maybe the real hell was the friends we made along the way

 

[Xdqwerty Xdqwerty]

I know it does. I also have autism. I had "friends" back in highschool who would tell me to "shut up", that I was "stupid and didn't know anything". That it was okay to be gay as long as I wasn't "that other faggot in senior year".

My friends dont insult me, mostly bc they dont talk about me so much. And the other people actually say im smart (even though I dont believe them at all)

The only way to push through hell is to face your fears head on and crawl your way up.

How?

 

[Spike's iconSpike]

I'm going to close this thread.
This topic goes beyond the scope of what our forum can safely support. If you're struggling with mental health issues, please reach out to a qualified professional or a local crisis service. You're not alone, and there are people who can help.