Mental health thread

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I wish I was an adult already

Being an adult sucks too.

 

[Xdqwerty]

I miss when my parents werent divorced

 

[Xdqwerty]

I feel better today

 

[fake-kun]

I feel better today

That's good to hear.

 

[Viviana Santos]

I've been feeling much better recently, my mental health isn't perfect but I feel healthier.

 

[Yousef]

I've been feeling much better recently, my mental health isn't perfect but I feel healthier.

AWESOME!!!

 

[fake-kun]

I've been feeling much better recently, my mental health isn't perfect but I feel healthier.

That's good!

 

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on a serious note (if I'm even capable of such conventions) - I often share my lifelong struggles with mental disorders in other posts or in chats- atm I just woke up n don't wanna trigger mehself to set a detrimental tone for my day so I won't go far into it for now - but for as much as I don't fear death or physical harm (which are for both positive n negative reasons) n I will throw down with anyone at the drop of a hat 'if aLL but force has failed' (I'd still rather break up a fight or only fight to protect those who are ill-equipped or too gripped with fear to defend themselves sufficiently) - I am a big coward when it comes to prolonged intimacy or sharing myself or my personal space with others - or looking things like rejection right in the eye. I also have puzzling problems that most find automatic n effortless to navigate - probably stemming from autism trappings that touch on the paralyzing combo of illusory 'perfectionism' n striving for 'objectivity' at all costs which turns what should be fun n immersive leisure activities into an utterly paralyzing, anxiety/frustration hell that only leads to more n more negative bad precedents.... long-story-short, I am filled to the brim with thought processes n daily issues to compliment my battles with ridiculous pain that even makes a 'tuff guy' who laughed at pain most of my life to cry 'uncle' n tap out though tapping out doesn't stop any inescapable nightmare scenario I face or even help to cope with it in any way/shape/form... my bizarre configuration of who I shamelessly strive to be irregardless of any 'need to belong' n my obscure health issues make this a lonely n answer-less battle as friends try to support n help but can't fully relate n don't know how to properly help - from lots of hope-crushing/discouraging experience 'professional' avenues of help don't know what to do for me either. this is all OK cuz I am a survivor with a supremely defiant attitude but sometimes even my extreme strengths n talents work against me as empty triumphs or maddening burdens that leave me often with loss of center/perspective or disillusioned n estranged from things I 'normally' love most... I don't wish to go on any further but this covers a bit of it. ADHD n bipolar type 1 also increase in severity n intensity to the point where I am left with no option, even strongly medicated, than to ride the rollercoaster or be the rollercoaster track n get run over by it repeatedly while I drag my feet in indecision or hesitation - unable to get a breather, unable to attain a middle-ground, unable to ever relax as my brain seems to incessantly push itself for a high level of productivity at all times whether I'm up fpr doin it or not.

sorry this is my burden n no one elses. I am strong enough to carry the weight but not always able to determine what direction to carry things towards or even know where to start after taking the curb-beatdown of clinical depression that even ignoring negative thinking or having good self-esteem can fight off. still I avoid any 'easy route' or falling back into self-medicating n I try to stop feeling 'sorry for myself' anytime I catch my disposition headin that way, I am strong enough to find solutions n am more compassioate than I even want to be as I feel strong painful 'gulps' worrying about disadvantaged ppl (even outta-control ones who fucked their life up) or neglected/abused animals. a friend who couldn't reach me where my phone was turned off took his own life n I have to relive that horror n self-blame over n over even in my sleep n a gf OD'd off a 'speedball' a week after I broke her heart n dismissed her calllously the week before... ughh sorry I have to cut this off now n go exercise or something, my bad for my confusing, entitled rant. my blackened heart goes out to everyone in or not in this thread for what it's worth n I'm better at helping others than my goddamned self so if anyone needs help but no one can provide an answer - reach out as my 'cosmic loneliness' of being far more unique than anyone should ever be - at least gives me the capabilities to understand n provide solutions fpr even those ball-n-chained to layers of labyrinthine comolexity or seeming paradoxical contradictions. sorry again if this is a dense/tough read n I perfectly understand if any of my posts are too TL:DR for most. thnx in any case