General Off-topic Chat (AKA let's break the ice)

[Yousef]

Joining this forum and other things I've been doing over the past few years has been in an attempt to restore a sense of childhood to myself all while being a mature adult. As a kid I spent a lot of time going on old Web 1.0 sites, playing old vidya, etc. I was a pretty lonely kid who felt super depressed, I couldn't sleep most nights, and it came to a head when I was 13 and had a psychotic breakdown which lasted a few years on and off. Involving myself in radical politics did not help whatsoever. I'm medicated now on antipsychotics and antidepressants and they help. I'm just trying to restore that sense of whimsy I never really had and so far it's going well. Abandoning social media is a huge step. When you surround yourself by all sorts of racism towards all sorts of people, misandry, misogyny, and visceral hatred of literally any group you could think of no matter who they are or how 'socially accepted' they are, it'll only keep you in that state.

The greatest realization I had was that the only thing that matters in the end is you, and what you do in your own life. We as individuals are imbued from above with the power to choose our own paths, even given our own situations.

Like I said before if you’re depressed and need someone to chat with I’m here for you. My dms are always open. It’s great having you on these forums.

 

[ObscureJigglypuff]

Joining this forum and other things I've been doing over the past few years has been in an attempt to restore a sense of childhood to myself all while being a mature adult. As a kid I spent a lot of time going on old Web 1.0 sites, playing old vidya, etc. I was a pretty lonely kid who felt super depressed, I couldn't sleep most nights, and it came to a head when I was 13 and had a psychotic breakdown which lasted a few years on and off. Involving myself in radical politics did not help whatsoever. I'm medicated now on antipsychotics and antidepressants and they help. I'm just trying to restore that sense of whimsy I never really had and so far it's going well. Abandoning social media is a huge step. When you surround yourself by all sorts of racism towards all sorts of people, misandry, misogyny, and visceral hatred of literally any group you could think of no matter who they are or how 'socially accepted' they are, it'll only keep you in that state.

The greatest realization I had was that the only thing that matters in the end is you, and what you do in your own life. We as individuals are imbued from above with the power to choose our own paths, even given our own situations.

Hey, hope you doing better.
I like you,
Send weirds
Dms to
Yousef
Please...

 

[Keaks]

Mental health is never fun when you are on the bad end of it, I am so happy you have found some help with it.

I completely agree. Emulation is definitely a way to recapture some of your youth. I use retroachievements, which is basically just achievements like steam but for old emulated games. It makes you want to keep coming back and playing. Pushing yourself to try again, hitless boss fights that I would never have tried. The achievements for pokemon games are awesome, really place you outside of what you are used to. Make it into a whole new experience.

Also the fact that it has allowed me to play all the games I watched other people be able to have as a kid, when we didn't have any resources to buy those games. I am super happy about that.

But, back to achievements... It definitely makes me stay with games, instead of just moving on to another game straight away, like I normally would. A positive recommend for all emulation fans.

 

[Yousef]

Mental health is never fun when you are on the bad end of it, I am so happy you have found some help with it.

I completely agree. Emulation is definitely a way to recapture some of your youth. I use retroachievements, which is basically just achievements like steam but for old emulated games. It makes you want to keep coming back and playing. Pushing yourself to try again, hitless boss fights that I would never have tried. The achievements for pokemon games are awesome, really place you outside of what you are used to. Make it into a whole new experience.

Also the fact that it has allowed me to play all the games I watched other people be able to have as a kid, when we didn't have any resources to buy those games. I am super happy about that.

But, back to achievements... It definitely makes me stay with games, instead of just moving on to another game straight away, like I normally would. A positive recommend for all emulation fans.

Well said ?

 

[Sandteufel]

Just got home from an exam and was thinking about things over.
Objectively speaking, my childhood geared me up to be a very competent adult. I've found my passions in life, know what I want to do, my direction is clear as day and that's a blessing. But I can't help but feel so much of it was lost to time. I had a small group of friends when I was a kid but I never did much with them. That's a regret I have. My dad was one of the few who treated me like a human being but he was a workaholic who I didn't get to see much of. My mother's got OCD so she's easy to set off. My sister was way too young to talk about anything with, and my older brother wanted nothing to do with me.

I tried clinging onto extended family, adolescent cousins and my older brother, but they always saw me as a hanger-on and a burden. So I pretty much had nothing save for video games and the Internet. I loved going on old random Web 1.0 sites, that's where I found my love for languages and history. I liked playing stuff like Wolfenstein 3D and DOOM 1 and 2 as a kid. In fact, DOOM's basically followed me my entire life even to this day.

It's often times that people love old video games not only for themselves but also their experiences associated with them. They associate the games they played with friends, maybe even a girlfriend/boyfriend. It's an artifact of a bygone time that brings longing. That isn't the case with me, or at least not quite. I had nothing else. I'm 20 years old, have no friends, no driver's license, and my entire social circle is made up of close family members.

It isn't because I'm overly shy or misanthropic, people are nice to me generally. I just feel a weird sense of unease speaking to people. I couldn't explain it otherwise, I use the term "to see the cyborg in someone" to refer to that.

Speaking of, and I hope this doesn't come across as narcissistic, but people tell me I'm super smart. My parents always saw me as a wunderkind, someone beyond his years, and in school I was put in the gifted class. A girl in my class even once told my mom I'm the most intelligent person she'd ever met.

I don't think I'm smart though, more of a savant (which is what my therapist described me as). Are there things I'm good at? Sure. But the few faculties where I exceed expectation are balanced out by a complete lack of social, emotional and spatial intelligence. Recently learned from my therapist that I have Asperger's syndrome, which makes a lot of sense to me now. In fact, I like this position. Being a "genius" would make me have to measure up to some arbitrary convention of what a "genius" is.

 

[Yousef]

Just got home from an exam and was thinking about things over.
Objectively speaking, my childhood geared me up to be a very competent adult. I've found my passions in life, know what I want to do, my direction is clear as day and that's a blessing. But I can't help but feel so much of it was lost to time. I had a small group of friends when I was a kid but I never did much with them. That's a regret I have. My dad was one of the few who treated me like a human being but he was a workaholic who I didn't get to see much of. My mother's got OCD so she's easy to set off. My sister was way too young to talk about anything with, and my older brother wanted nothing to do with me.

I tried clinging onto extended family, adolescent cousins and my older brother, but they always saw me as a hanger-on and a burden. So I pretty much had nothing save for video games and the Internet. I loved going on old random Web 1.0 sites, that's where I found my love for languages and history. I liked playing stuff like Wolfenstein 3D and DOOM 1 and 2 as a kid. In fact, DOOM's basically followed me my entire life even to this day.

It's often times that people love old video games not only for themselves but also their experiences associated with them. They associate the games they played with friends, maybe even a girlfriend/boyfriend. It's an artifact of a bygone time that brings longing. That isn't the case with me, or at least not quite. I had nothing else. I'm 20 years old, have no friends, no driver's license, and my entire social circle is made up of close family members.

It isn't because I'm overly shy or misanthropic, people are nice to me generally. I just feel a weird sense of unease speaking to people. I couldn't explain it otherwise, I use the term "to see the cyborg in someone" to refer to that.

Speaking of, and I hope this doesn't come across as narcissistic, but people tell me I'm super smart. My parents always saw me as a wunderkind, someone beyond his years, and in school I was put in the gifted class. A girl in my class even once told my mom I'm the most intelligent person she'd ever met.

I don't think I'm smart though, more of a savant (which is what my therapist described me as). Are there things I'm good at? Sure. But the few faculties where I exceed expectation are balanced out by a complete lack of social, emotional and spatial intelligence. Recently learned from my therapist that I have Asperger's syndrome, which makes a lot of sense to me now. In fact, I like this position. Being a "genius" would make me have to measure up to some arbitrary convention of what a "genius" is.

Big hugs ?

 

[Inkingsama]

What the? Sandteufel got banned?

 

[DrunkOcelot]

HELLO FRIENDS I AM HERE TO PARTY

 

[Gorse]

HELLO FRIENDS I AM HERE TO PARTY

OH MY GOD – ME TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Yousef]

OH MY GOD – ME TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

REALLY??? ME SAME!!!!!!

 

[ZEGA ZONIC]

OH MY GOD – ME TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I bought the nachos!

 

[DrunkOcelot]

YEEEEEEE! WE ARE READY

 

[zmbfan]

Is there a limit of how many posts you can make whos the green ninja?

 

[Yousef]

It exactly what it says. You make too many threads. Either adapt to how things are or don’t.
RC is better than both.

 

[DrunkOcelot]

Redbull and cigarettes is the only acceptable breakfast

 

[Waffles's iconWaffles]

Is there a limit of how many posts you can make whos the green ninja?

There is no "limit" per se, but remember that the forums are a shared commodity. It isn't fun for the rest of the userbase to get flooded by dozens of polls and low-effort threads as soon as they enter.

Please be mindful of that.

 

[zmbfan]

There is no "limit" per se, but remember that the forums are a shared commodity. It isn't fun for the rest of the userbase to get flooded by dozens of polls and low-effort threads as soon as they enter.

Please be mindful of that.

Ty for the advice so what are some suggestions so I don't get banned?

 

[DrunkOcelot]

"What are some suggestions so I don't get banned?"

Zmbfan
(Banned)

Heh. Not to laugh at anyones misfortune but---Lol

 

[Waffles's iconWaffles]

Ty for the advice so what are some suggestions so I don't get banned?

Just be cool about it.

Try to develop a single idea to the max and post that instead of making a dozen threads about others.

No-one wants you gone.

 

[ZEGA ZONIC]

Just be cool about it.

Try to develop a single idea to the max and post that instead of making a dozen threads about others.

No-one wants you gone.

It's a bit too late for that. lol

 

[Yousef]

Ripbozo

 

[Cheela Cheela Cheela's icon]

that is soo unfortunate timing

 

[Waffles's iconWaffles]

It's a bit too late for that. lol

That happened while I was posting.

 

[Yousef]

that is soo unfortunate timing

Maybe a moderater misread the message as “how do I get banned?” and granted their request /hj

 

[Waffles's iconWaffles]

Since the member is no longer here, please stop talking about them.

Dogpiling helps no-one.